“Questions”

I wonder what my dreams will be?

If they will ever find me?

Will I find them?

Or am I lost

Forever?

To ponder inside myself 

all this dispair

uncertainty

that engulfs 

defining me

in 

my

gloom

looming over me like a dark secret

I need something to complete it

fill me up

make me whole

when will I be bold enough to share

two wholes 

not one darkness

a lite candle 

held out for me in distress

to be blessed

by the those who called it sin

then I can pick myself

up

once again.

   By

          Angela K. Crandall

By rebel4universal2acceptance Posted in Poetry Tagged

Restoration

Restoration

My heart dreams of re-birth
A new Moon
dipping myself in fresh water
 dripping off my body, Falling
Riding the waves into the shore
Laying in the warmth of the sun
To dry
Drinking cool exotic concoctions wet on my lips
Leaning over to kiss, taste, treat myself to unrealistic notions
Others find difficult to bear
While I smile.
By
Angela K. Crandall

Two sides of me by Angela K. Crandall Author

“I’m not ashamed of dreaming
of truth and lies
or long goodbyes
but of not trying
moving
dancing
singing
screaming
believing
loving till it all falls down around you.
Spent in entanglement
again curious of your own circumference
hope again picking you back up
warmth of arms around you
starting again
a clock once stopped now ticking
like a heart beat that was once thought dead
like my sides of myself they cycle on
dreaming, dancing, truth and illusions
mixed.”
By
Angela K. Crandall, Author

Seperated, Stopped, violated…

Inside of me are cities
worlds unbroken
lifted up by the unspoken
gifted by hope
in a remote place
this is where you seek escape
into the night
fishing for what’s been left undone
searching for that note you left on the train
a piece of your heart that was stolen
It left you frozen in time
Placing you in a cube a bubble
where you plan to live
to keep them out
unable to break free from this violation
you let them create
saying stop
you said stop
but insead of them stopping
you did.
Angela K. Crandall, Author

Moving On…

“Hear the rain, feel the rain, be the rain of renewal washing over my scars catching glimpses of the past while I pass on and grow covering them with new skin, thicker than before, durable, elastic, stretchy like a life span that shoots before you while death remains unknown I choose to live.”-Angela K. Crandall, Author

Quotes of the Midnight Express

“Travel into my mind take a dip, go for it, taste the sweet and the sour my midnight power that won’t let me sleep come on dive deep!”-Angela K. Crandall, Author

“It’s easier to leave groups you’ve joined when you’ve been hurt one too many times. I try to keep my head held high, not to let my spirit die, but some days its fall other days you climb then there is the inbetween time when sleep takes hold better to dream then grow old.”-Angela K. Crandall, Author

“Hold me in these arms of mine, let me find a way to shine, a way to be more than just me, a way to be truly free.”-Angela K. Crandall, Author “Love thy Self.”

“Hope works its way inside me no matter how others push, pull, and tug to lift it away it comes back to me like the words in a song, or a beat of a drum that says keep moving on.“-Angela K. Crandall, Author

Advice?

I have a few sites I like to share my work on. what really annoys me about word press is they don’t let me copy and past my work to this site. Any advice?

Writing

Recently much of my time has been taken up by a novel I am currently working on. I started a writing project in July for a short stories book for Halloween. When I began writing  the third story in the book I had  no idea it would take on a mind of its own turning into an Urban Fantasy. When I reached about 12,000 words I realized it would no longer be a part of the original plan. It was then I moved it into its own file to start a second project. I’m pretty much keeping it on the down low until it is finished. I am now on Chapter 21 with a word count of 47,399 words. My goal for  my word count is 65,000 for a Novella. It will be the first novel I have written when it is released. I’ve been working very diligently to try to make it better than my last short story that was  released in January. I don’t want to make the same mistakes I made before. My goal as an author is to make every project better than my last, to learn and grow from past mistakes in order to maintain a good standing with my audience and supporters. Thank you for following my blog. I will continue to do my best to maintain it with tidbits of poetry, writing, and observations of the world around  me. Have a great week!